Nothing you can say
Could take this back to where it was
You just keep asking if it hurts me
When you know it fucking does
I get so invested
I confuse my pain for love
I just keep praying that your learning
But I guess what’s done is done
Can’t go back in time
And I don’t know if I would
Got so used to crying
I forgot about the good
Sometimes my emotions
Make me feel misunderstood
But this time I have no confusion
You don’t treat me how you should
Looked into the eyes
Of my reflection late at night
I apologize
I’ve let you down so many times
I failed to provide
You with protection
I know I
Could never fix it if I tried
But he’s no longer in your life
And I’ll be gone before morning light
Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time
The hurting ends tonight
The sting of tears streaming from my eyes
Nothing can change my mind
Won’t let myself think twice
Before you wake I’ll be out of sight
Can’t stay to see you cry
All that you kept inside
Something euphoric in this twilight
All the control is mine
Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time
(Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time)
I don’t need a reason
At this point I don’t care why
You’re so incapable of love
No matter how damn hard I try
Don’t give me excuses
Nothing left can justify
It doesn’t make a fucking difference
I want what you can’t provide
Looked into the eyes
Of my reflection late at night
I apologize
I’ve let you down so many times
I failed to provide
You with protection
I know I
Could never fix it if I tried
But he’s no longer in your life
And I’ll be gone before morning light
Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time
The hurting ends tonight
(I’m not gonna wait ‘til the morning)
The sting of tears streaming from my eyes
Nothing can change my mind
Won’t let myself think twice
(Not gonna wait ‘til the morning light)
Before you wake I’ll be out of sight
Can’t stay to see you cry
All that you kept inside
(All that you kept inside)
Something euphoric in this twilight
All the control is mine
Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time
(Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time)
Ripped out the IV
This isn’t living
You’ll never save me
(Save me save me)
I’m only moving
Forward so don’t think
I’ll be returning
I find it funny
That you only chase me
When you think I’m leaving
It’s terrifying
That I ever thought you could possibly love me
And I’ll be gone before morning light
Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time
I’ll be gone before morning light
Can’t wait ‘til dawn
(Gone before morning light
Tears streaming from my eyes
Nothing can change my mind)
Something euphoric in this twilight
(Something euphoric in this twilight
All the control is mine
Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time)
Can’t wait ‘til dawn this time
credits
from MOTH DEMOS,
released May 20, 2022
Lyrics and vocals by JAXYN
Production and mixing by Ron Mist
Mastered at The Pittsburgh Sound Castle
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